Monday, December 8, 2008

just breathe.

last night was the Mix 105.1 Holiday Soiree with Simulcast, Matthew Nathanson and Sara Bareilles.

I will be completely honest with you. I have been entirely unmotivated and uninspired when it comes to music. It's all so blase to me lately. Honestly, how many more bands can music companies put together in order to satisfy a 'quota.' There is so much talent out there waiting for that ONE break. Unfortunately, because youtube has become a phenomenon and macbooks are now equipped with garageband...everyone thinks they have the right to title themselves a musician. Well, i'm here to dismantle your self-proposed title... you have no credibility.

Scott has leukemia. He is in remission now, fortunately, but it never stopped him from coming to the station every morning and doing what he needed to do. Last night was his first time playing a show since it was announced the leukemia shows no visibility. He played his heart out and everyone from the station so grateful to have been there watching him as he was just Scott.

Matthew Nathanson was good, too. I more so enjoyed his sense of humor and ability to interact so flawlessly and comfortably with the audience. His music is similar to that of what I would have listened to in high school, but i rather enjoy his one song "Come On Get Higher." Not ashamed to admit it.

Oh, Sara Bareilles. The Mix crew had the chance to go back and meet her and have a photo-op for the website but I was incredibly thankful. Beyond words, in fact. Erin was elated. I was just thankful.

It was her birthday so we all gave her warm wishes...and I marveled at her impeccable fashion sense.

The point is not her fashion sense, though... it's the fact that she is fucking incredible.

Im going to say it...i am a HUGE Sara Bareilles fan. She is a mix of Billy Joel and Andrew McMahon all encompassed into a woman's body. And she is fucking talented.

Not only is she an incredible musician...but her voice is so raw...so pure...so beautiful. And her acappella was enough to convince so many other people, as well.

Last night...my faith in the music industry was slightly restored when she performed. And i thank her for that. I really do.

Lately, that quote that I have lived by since high school has been in my face abruptly.

"You can't shake hands with a clenched fist."

Indira Gandhi was quite the wise woman. She had to have been to be the only lady prime minister EVER in India.

The point is...i battle my demons on a daily basis...and lately... i havent wanted to. Ive just wanted to let everything go and start fresh. Every. Day. I haven't wanted to hold grudges...i haven't wanted to be angry at the people surrounding me. All i have wanted to do is offer them what so ever i can. I hope one day i feel karma has caught up to me. As for now...im just correcting my past mistakes.

I am so incredibly fortunate for the people in my life, for my job...and for the way i was brought up. I guess that's what Im thankful for...it's a little late...but it's true.

signing out.
-au

1 comment:

Karamea said...

it's about time. i thought you had forgotten about blogworld. land. thing. this. :)

putting your present in the mail tomory. get ready to jump for freakin joy.